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THISHi my name is Kristen and I have been reading about everyone's loses and it continues to break my heart. I lost my boyfriend on halloween nite. He came into a bar that I was working that night and after continous attempts of trying to make me hate him, he shot himself infront of me just before last call. I only dated him for two months. I know that some of you are thinking that I only knew him for 2 months and need to move on but I hate when people say that....no one knows what our relationship was like. I dated a lot of shitty men and my mom always told me I'd meet my prince and that there was a perfect guy out there for me...I never believed her and we actually got into some argueements over this. But nevertheless...she was right. I did meet my prince. U know when older people tell you that you know the instant that you meet someone if you were ment to be together....well thats how I felt. There was something about him...I fell in love from the moment I met him and everyone around me knew it. I never wanted to leave him and honestly thought that he was the man that I'd marry. I had just graduated nursing school when I had met him. I had such a tough time going through school and thought that I'd never make it. My friends and family kept telling me to hang in there because once I finished things would all fall into place. Sure as shit they did. I met him and finally thought that my life had come together. I was the happiest in thoses two months then I'd ever been in my life...and I'm not just saying that now...my mom and the rest of my family saw it in my face everytime I saw them and made it a point to mention it. I had a plan! I never had a plan before. It was one that included him....forever. I had sensed that he was very depressed after a while but didn't know his family and didn't know what to say to his friends. Rob kept telling me that he was sick and I didn't want to be that new girlfriend that was a bitch telling him that he wasn't sick. I let him down...I feel as though I was susposed to save him. He left me enough signs that this would happen but I didn't trust myself enough! Everyday I wake up and wish that he had taken me with him. Everyday I just want to reach out and touch him. I feel that he still wants me to hate him because I have dreams that he was cheating on me and I know for a fact that wasn't true. The pain that I feel is indescribable. It is nothing that I have ever felt before. I hate to be around people because the noise and simple conversation makes no sense...I mostly feel as though I'm on the outside listening in. I have trouble being alone at nite because that is when I start to feel and think. Most days I dont want to go home. I lie to myself to get outta bed everyday...I have convinced myself that he just hadda go away for a while and if I just get outta bed 2day and try to go to work he'll be there when I get home, excited to see me. I'm always dissappointed when leaving work and need to stop for drinks inorder to be numb and not remember so I can go home and sleep. Did I mention that he didn't die instantly...he made it through surgery and then to the ICU where I laid in his bed with him till he died the next morning. I feel as though my life was completely flipped upside down. One minute I was on top of the world and thought I had everything...the next, it was all gone. I don't even want to take my test to be a nurse because I feel as though I mentally can't handle it and also I feel as though I've let him down and failed to do my job. I miss him more and more everyday and no matter how hard I try...I'll never be mad at him. People tell me that time will heal but I think that that line is bullshit...it has done nothing but get worse. My friends are for the most part pieces of shit that delt with me for about 3-4 weeks and then told me to get over it...I've never felt so alone.How do you manage sunscreen on your furbaby? Do you have the spray on? Does it leave their coat all sticky or matty?Zoe likes to be out but I am afraid she'll get sunburned....Quote:Originally Posted by Superfuzz_BigmuffI didn't see shit there. <3.Electronica.