THISonly rage toward him for what he had done to my mother, my brothers, my family, and me. My brain wouldn't allow me to believe any of it, and I spent the rest of the day packing a suitcase for the long 4AM flight from California to my home state of South Carolina in a trance. I know the latter has gone through a great deal of evolution, but listening to their older tracks (mostly from their 1st LP: Duran Duran) have reignited by love for D2. There was no sign that indicated that he was feeling suicidal. I can't afford therapy, and I just don't know what to do.I need some type of help or guidance.I feel so lost. But unlike the rest of my family, all I feel is rage and resentment toward my father. My boyfriend, bless his heart, wasn't able to make the journey with me due to his work and the 12 animals we own.On August 11, 2009 at 9:17AM, my father took his own life in my family's home. Aahh, memories indeed. I wrote his eulogy for his memorial since no one could bring themselves to do it, and though I meant every word, they still taste like a lie. I couldn't cry at his burial. I didn't believe him at first. We had my father cremated, and none of us got to see the remains. I started screaming "NO, you're lying!" at the top of my lungs because I wanted so desperately for it to not be true. They were making all sorts of plans together. I haven't been able to eat because my stomach feels like a hard knot, and sleeping is out of the question because all of my dreams are images of my father putting the end of that rifle in his mouth.I saved my father's life the last time he attempted suicide, and it took me a long, long time to forgive him. He's 15 months old and is still growing hence i thought the protein is important for this growth.I don't see how I can forgive him for this. Night Boat, Planet Earth, Anyone Out There, Tel Aviv, Careless Memories, etc. When he told me that Dad shot himself with the gun our other brother had given him for his birthday, I begged him to tell me that it was all a lie, that it was a heart attack. I can't laugh about the good times with everyone else.I just don't understand.talking about him makes me sick to my stomach. I've started to introduce Beta to his diet to see how he gets on with that as it was recommended by somebody. My poor mother is a total wreck, and the fact that she is having the aortic valve in her heart replaced this Tuesday (her 52nd birthday and the 3 week anniversary of my father's suicide) makes it that much worse. It makes me absolutely sick to hear people say "You know he loved you" because it doesn't feel like it anymore.Recently, I've been feeling a bit nostalgic and revisited the likes of blur and Duran Duran. If he loved us, then why do this to us? He had tried to commit suicide four times prior to this, the last incident being almost 9 year ago, and we thought he was doing better. The coroner said that the damage my father had done to himself was beyond repair by even the most skilled mortician, and that it would be best to remember him as he was. I can't even talk about him without wanting to bring him back so I can punch him right in the mouth.My mother called my boyfriend at 7:00AM PST on her way home from work.It feels like there is no end to the tears.~Rebecca. My mom had kissed and hugged him and they exchanged "I love you's" before she left for work. I moved to California in 2006 and that part of me can't help but feel that maybe if I had been there, this wouldn't have happened.He also said never to feed pet shop teats as they have a high sodium content which is bad for dogs and to feed them digestive biscuits?!Any thoughts?!?!Thanks,Sarah~X~Sorry if this has been posted already - I tried the search but didn't find anything.Have I cried? Oh yes.We couldn't see the body, and there was no note. Between dealing with the tons of family that we had flooding the house constantly and the money-grubbing funeral home, I purposely forced myself into a numb state so my mother didn't have to do anything. I've forgiven him for a lot of things, but I don't think I can this time.All I wanted to do was scream at him, but all I could do was just walk away. He also said that his suicide was completely random and not planned at all.I didn't know it was suicide until my youngest brother called.From the moment I stepped off that plane, me being the only daughter and the oldest (I'm 26, and my brothers are 24 and 21), I pushed my feelings aside and took charge. Both of these foods are high in protein, between 25 & 31% but a guy at a boarding kennel i went to look at told me that a high protein diet would be bad for him and would make him miserable because it would give him too much energy for his activity level.We buried his ashes in our family plot behind my grandfather, and seeing such a tiny box containing the 6'2" body of my father didn't help make it feel real. He gets 2hrs walk a day plus plenty of playtime at home. Even as I'm writing this, I just don't know what to say that could accurately portray the thoughts and feelings running through my head.We feed Oscar Jubilee premium working dog food simply because its the brand he was on as a baby from the breeder. I didn't feel the sadness everyone else was feeling.I knew the moment that phone rang that something was wrong, and everything came crashing down around me when he took me in his arms and told me that my father had died.There are no words in any language that could possibly describe the rage, the agony, the fear, and that hollow sense of loss that I feel. I don't know what to do with myself or the feelings of intense anger that flares up toward my father;
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My boyfriend, bless his heart, wasn't able to make the journey with me due to his work and the 12 animals we own.On August 11, 2009 at 9:17AM, my father took his own life in my family's home. Aahh, memories indeed. I wrote his eulogy for his memorial since no one could bring themselves to do it, and though I meant every word, they still taste like a lie. I couldn't cry at his burial. I didn't believe him at first. We had my father cremated, and none of us got to see the remains. I started screaming "NO, you're lying!" at the top of my lungs because I wanted so desperately for it to not be true. They were making all sorts of plans together. I haven't been able to eat because my stomach feels like a hard knot, and sleeping is out of the question because all of my dreams are images of my father putting the end of that rifle in his mouth.I saved my father's life the last time he attempted suicide, and it took me a long, long time to forgive him. He's 15 months old and is still growing hence i thought the protein is important for this growth.I don't see how I can forgive him for this. Night Boat, Planet Earth, Anyone Out There, Tel Aviv, Careless Memories, etc. When he told me that Dad shot himself with the gun our other brother had given him for his birthday, I begged him to tell me that it was all a lie, that it was a heart attack. I can't laugh about the good times with everyone else.I just don't understand.talking about him makes me sick to my stomach. I've started to introduce Beta to his diet to see how he gets on with that as it was recommended by somebody. My poor mother is a total wreck, and the fact that she is having the aortic valve in her heart replaced this Tuesday (her 52nd birthday and the 3 week anniversary of my father's suicide) makes it that much worse. It makes me absolutely sick to hear people say "You know he loved you" because it doesn't feel like it anymore.Recently, I've been feeling a bit nostalgic and revisited the likes of blur and Duran Duran. If he loved us, then why do this to us? He had tried to commit suicide four times prior to this, the last incident being almost 9 year ago, and we thought he was doing better. The coroner said that the damage my father had done to himself was beyond repair by even the most skilled mortician, and that it would be best to remember him as he was. I can't even talk about him without wanting to bring him back so I can punch him right in the mouth.My mother called my boyfriend at 7:00AM PST on her way home from work.It feels like there is no end to the tears.~Rebecca. My mom had kissed and hugged him and they exchanged "I love you's" before she left for work. I moved to California in 2006 and that part of me can't help but feel that maybe if I had been there, this wouldn't have happened.He also said never to feed pet shop teats as they have a high sodium content which is bad for dogs and to feed them digestive biscuits?!Any thoughts?!?!Thanks,Sarah~X~Sorry if this has been posted already - I tried the search but didn't find anything.Have I cried? Oh yes.We couldn't see the body, and there was no note. Between dealing with the tons of family that we had flooding the house constantly and the money-grubbing funeral home, I purposely forced myself into a numb state so my mother didn't have to do anything. I've forgiven him for a lot of things, but I don't think I can this time.All I wanted to do was scream at him, but all I could do was just walk away. He also said that his suicide was completely random and not planned at all.I didn't know it was suicide until my youngest brother called.From the moment I stepped off that plane, me being the only daughter and the oldest (I'm 26, and my brothers are 24 and 21), I pushed my feelings aside and took charge. Both of these foods are high in protein, between 25 & 31% but a guy at a boarding kennel i went to look at told me that a high protein diet would be bad for him and would make him miserable because it would give him too much energy for his activity level.We buried his ashes in our family plot behind my grandfather, and seeing such a tiny box containing the 6'2" body of my father didn't help make it feel real. He gets 2hrs walk a day plus plenty of playtime at home. Even as I'm writing this, I just don't know what to say that could accurately portray the thoughts and feelings running through my head.We feed Oscar Jubilee premium working dog food simply because its the brand he was on as a baby from the breeder. I didn't feel the sadness everyone else was feeling.I knew the moment that phone rang that something was wrong, and everything came crashing down around me when he took me in his arms and told me that my father had died.There are no words in any language that could possibly describe the rage, the agony, the fear, and that hollow sense of loss that I feel. I don't know what to do with myself or the feelings of intense anger that flares up toward my father,In recent months, the Nike Blazer Lows have come to be replaced by the Nike Zoom Bruin SB. The latest previews of this line of kicks shows that cheap nike shoes for sale; air jordan on sale; authentic jordans;
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